Buffy the Vampire Slayer: I Don't Give
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januar_ficTitle: I Don't Give
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Characters/pairing: Faith, Willow
Rating: n/a
Word count: 761
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crazedcrusader wanted Buffyverse, with Faith and Willow discussing mistakes and redemption. I'm really really really sorry if this one sucks. *winces*
"Can’t sleep either?”
Faith dragged her eyes away from staring out in space to see Willow standing. “It’s more like a too much sleep thing,” she said, flicking her cigarette before taking another drag. “Me and comas get along so much that afterwards, I can’t sleep. Plus, tonight’s excitement has me all wired.”
Willow sighed, coming over to sit on the railing by Faith. “Yeah,” she said, staring down the street. “I know what you mean.”
Faith looked uneasy. “Hey, I’m sure B.’ll fine. She’s a big girl. She just needs to, I dunno, get away for a while. Let off some steam.” She tries to smile reassuringly. “Then we’ll all be one happy lil’ family again.” She frowned, then took another drag. “A dysfunctional family, but still one.”
“I guess,” Willow said, sighing again. “I just kind of feel bad. I mean, Buffy’s one of my best friends, and we just tossed her out,” she waved her hand in the air, “whoosh, like that.” She looked over at Faith. “And now we get a new leader.”
Faith grimaced. “Yeah, ‘bout that… I didn’t want, mean to…”
Willow held up a hand, smiling a little. “I know. It all kind of happened at once. In the ‘building up for a long time’ kind of way. You just happened to get to be hear when it all fell apart.”
“Woo, lucky me,” Faith said sarcastically. “Now it’s my turn to completely fuck up and lead these girls to their doom.”
“Don’t talk like that,” Willow said, reassuringly. “I’m sure you’ll do fine. You’re already on a good start, you know, saying we should all get sleep and such.”
“And yet here we are,” Faith smirked, “not sleeping.” She took a drag from her cigarette, then glanced at Willow. “You know, I’ve been tryin’ to figure something out.”
“Hm?”
Faith looked down at her cigarette and took one last drag before dropping it on the porch and crushing it with her book. “Out of the old gang, you’re the only person who didn’t look at me like the murderer I am, was, right off the bat. I would’ve thought that you would have the most reason to, well, besides B., on behalf of holding a knife to your neck.”
“Well,” Willow said, pulling up her legs so she could set her chin on her knees, “I kinda know what it’s like to be all evil like.”
Faith lifted her eyebrows. “You? Evil? You’re kidding me.”
“I wish.” Willow stared out in space, organizing her thoughts. “I went through this magic addiction phase last year. It caused me to get wrekless, and because of that, people got hurt. I stopped using magic, in hopes to put my life back together, to have T… people trust me again. But then…” She stopped, taking a deep breath that was only slightly shaking.
Faith looked uneasy, wishing she had another cigarette on her. “Hey, you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want me. I’m all for not sharing emotions and feelings and shit.”
Willow shook her head, taking another deep breath. “Someone really close to me was killed, right in front of me. I snapped, killed the guy who killed her, then tried to destroy the world.”
Faith winced. “Damn. I’m sorry, Will. I didn’t know.”
Willow shrugged, not looking at Faith. “Xander managed to bring me back from the edge. I had to go away for a while, learn to control my magic all over again. Even then, when I came back, I still had to work a bit to get everyone’s trust back.”
“Well, you seem to have it now,” Faith said, glancing at the house. “I doubt I’ll ever get the gang’s complete trust.”
“You just need to give them time,” Willow said reassuringly. “I mean, they’re not completely snubbing you right now, right? It might be hard, but I’m sure they’ll be able to forgive you. Some day.”
Faith smirked. “Maybe they all need to go bad for a little bit, then they’ll know the deal.”
“Well, Xander is planning on becoming a pirate…” Willow grinned.
“Oh, that solves it, then,” Faith said, smirking. “The world is definitely doomed.” The smirk faded at Faith looked back out at the dark street. “You think we’re gonna survive this one?”
Willow followed Faith‘s gaze out to the street. “We’ve survived them before.”
Faith looked at Willow. “That’s not really an answer.”
Willow looked back, not saying anything. She didn’t really need to.
Faith sighed, then looked up at the sky. “Yeah. Me too.”
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Characters/pairing: Faith, Willow
Rating: n/a
Word count: 761
A/N:
crazedcrusader wanted Buffyverse, with Faith and Willow discussing mistakes and redemption. I'm really really really sorry if this one sucks. *winces*"Can’t sleep either?”
Faith dragged her eyes away from staring out in space to see Willow standing. “It’s more like a too much sleep thing,” she said, flicking her cigarette before taking another drag. “Me and comas get along so much that afterwards, I can’t sleep. Plus, tonight’s excitement has me all wired.”
Willow sighed, coming over to sit on the railing by Faith. “Yeah,” she said, staring down the street. “I know what you mean.”
Faith looked uneasy. “Hey, I’m sure B.’ll fine. She’s a big girl. She just needs to, I dunno, get away for a while. Let off some steam.” She tries to smile reassuringly. “Then we’ll all be one happy lil’ family again.” She frowned, then took another drag. “A dysfunctional family, but still one.”
“I guess,” Willow said, sighing again. “I just kind of feel bad. I mean, Buffy’s one of my best friends, and we just tossed her out,” she waved her hand in the air, “whoosh, like that.” She looked over at Faith. “And now we get a new leader.”
Faith grimaced. “Yeah, ‘bout that… I didn’t want, mean to…”
Willow held up a hand, smiling a little. “I know. It all kind of happened at once. In the ‘building up for a long time’ kind of way. You just happened to get to be hear when it all fell apart.”
“Woo, lucky me,” Faith said sarcastically. “Now it’s my turn to completely fuck up and lead these girls to their doom.”
“Don’t talk like that,” Willow said, reassuringly. “I’m sure you’ll do fine. You’re already on a good start, you know, saying we should all get sleep and such.”
“And yet here we are,” Faith smirked, “not sleeping.” She took a drag from her cigarette, then glanced at Willow. “You know, I’ve been tryin’ to figure something out.”
“Hm?”
Faith looked down at her cigarette and took one last drag before dropping it on the porch and crushing it with her book. “Out of the old gang, you’re the only person who didn’t look at me like the murderer I am, was, right off the bat. I would’ve thought that you would have the most reason to, well, besides B., on behalf of holding a knife to your neck.”
“Well,” Willow said, pulling up her legs so she could set her chin on her knees, “I kinda know what it’s like to be all evil like.”
Faith lifted her eyebrows. “You? Evil? You’re kidding me.”
“I wish.” Willow stared out in space, organizing her thoughts. “I went through this magic addiction phase last year. It caused me to get wrekless, and because of that, people got hurt. I stopped using magic, in hopes to put my life back together, to have T… people trust me again. But then…” She stopped, taking a deep breath that was only slightly shaking.
Faith looked uneasy, wishing she had another cigarette on her. “Hey, you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want me. I’m all for not sharing emotions and feelings and shit.”
Willow shook her head, taking another deep breath. “Someone really close to me was killed, right in front of me. I snapped, killed the guy who killed her, then tried to destroy the world.”
Faith winced. “Damn. I’m sorry, Will. I didn’t know.”
Willow shrugged, not looking at Faith. “Xander managed to bring me back from the edge. I had to go away for a while, learn to control my magic all over again. Even then, when I came back, I still had to work a bit to get everyone’s trust back.”
“Well, you seem to have it now,” Faith said, glancing at the house. “I doubt I’ll ever get the gang’s complete trust.”
“You just need to give them time,” Willow said reassuringly. “I mean, they’re not completely snubbing you right now, right? It might be hard, but I’m sure they’ll be able to forgive you. Some day.”
Faith smirked. “Maybe they all need to go bad for a little bit, then they’ll know the deal.”
“Well, Xander is planning on becoming a pirate…” Willow grinned.
“Oh, that solves it, then,” Faith said, smirking. “The world is definitely doomed.” The smirk faded at Faith looked back out at the dark street. “You think we’re gonna survive this one?”
Willow followed Faith‘s gaze out to the street. “We’ve survived them before.”
Faith looked at Willow. “That’s not really an answer.”
Willow looked back, not saying anything. She didn’t really need to.
Faith sighed, then looked up at the sky. “Yeah. Me too.”
